(not) Running

Running can be fun, but it is work, and it is not always a high priority.

Running has taken a back seat lately to many things.

Kids, Swimming championships for the young one, as well as Mountain bike team.

Night times with my wife are important.

Chores need to get finished, some daily, some weekly. Others as needed.

Work, takes 40 hours a week for just about any person, but more and more people are talking about 50-60 hour work weeks.

Volunteering activities.

Running must find a spot in this list and it must find it soon.

A look back

I generally do not look back on my posts, for me they are like water in a stream.

I stumbled on THIS and remember most of it. The first part was my true heart as I was quite anguished over that trip. What was not said, is that the summer trip was canceled due to lack of interest. By the next year’s trip I was in a dark place and did not feel called to go. At least that is what I kept telling myself. I think I was so bitter over the 2010 trip that I refused to listen to God. I never went in 2011 even though the plead in the last paragraph of the original post was coming at me in full. (probably for the best that I did not recognise that).

Speaking of the last paragraph, I hate it now. it sounds so self absorbed. Probably because it was, as was the whole thing. I am trying to find what God’s plan is for me, where he wants me to go, when, and with who.

It’s a constant struggle to hear God. The mission trip this year has been fairly silent. What I think God is calling to me is “love the human race”, and “every available minute”??

Glory to God above.

Be Driven by Convictions, Not Confidence – Pete Wilson

Be Driven by Convictions, Not Confidence, those word have rung true for me, and I can’t help thinking about someone that has reached out to me about going on a mission trip. The person sound truly called by what they have said. But the reservations that are stated by this person are lack of confidence and lack of approval from those she loves.

Most of the decisions we make in life are based on confidence. Do I feel confident that I could do this? Can I pull this off? This confidence most often comes from the support and approval of those around us.But be careful. If all of your confidence is based off the people around you, you’re only going to do things that those people believe that you can do.What about the dream God has laid on your heart? At some point, you have to make decisions based on a deep conviction, and not just the confidence you’ve built from the approval of others.

Source: Be Driven by Convictions, Not Confidence – Pete Wilson

I have felt this myself in the past, especially around the mission trip, but not only the mission trip. for almost 10 years I have not felt like the people around me that I love have given approval of the trip.

One person has said repeatedly, that they do feel like what we do could make a difference. Americans have been providing assistance for years and they still need help.

Other people are more passive. No examples come to mind without those people feeling like I have pointed them out.