Daily discipline, something that I have never been good at. I make up my mind to run each day, and eventually it rains or is too cold to go for a run. Or I make up my mind to write a blog post each day, and I forget, and next think I know is that a week or month has passed by. Or I set out to make a personal budget and find receipts pilling up and think that this is a waste of time, besides I am the only one trying to live with a budget, the wife is not.
The one that hurts the most is I plan to pray and spend time with God each day, and even that falls to the side of the road.
Somethings I can do, I remember to go to work each day!?!?
So I have a problem with priorities, when I think or feel the “thing” is important, like going to work, or eating healthy, it is easier to control.
So why the issue with prayer, I do believe in prayer, I really do. But my actions speak louder to me then my beliefs. If appears that I do not believe in prayer as much as I would like to think that I did. For if it was truly something that I believe I in it should be no problem to take the time to pray. I have no problem taking time to pray for someone in need. A person I know, Dan, is sick, really sick… I find myself saying prayers for him fairly regularly, or rather irregularly, but often. I have noticed that Dan has been missing the last two Wednesdays…This saddens me as I know the end is near. Dan has a limited amount of time on this earth, as we all do, but Dan knows his end is near.
This week I learnt of another fellow, who is a teacher and he was told not to teach this year. His doctor told him this because it is his belief that this guy will not last the school year. I give this guy credit, he says that since he feels good he is going to continue to teach, it is what he loves and when his time ends, it ends. I applaud him, when I was younger, I felt as though I would without question do the admirable thing when is comes to situations like this. Do the thing that really makes a difference to other people and how they live their lives. Do the thing that makes the world a better place. I am older now and much wiser, so I know that I do not always to the right thing. If I have time and good advise I still trust that I will do the right thing. But I have also learned that until I am in a situation that I really do not know how I would really react to it.
Sometimes love has changed what I thought was the right thing, to something else that is more loving… sometimes my ideals have softened and I no longer believe what my younger self believes.
I guess the important thing that has come out of all of this is that I try not to judge others based on what I believe is the right thing to do, as I am not in their shoes. I have learned that really truly putting yourself in someone else’s perspective can be eye opening. I have learned that any answer has losers and winners in it. Any solution that is easy it probably not the right one, you might need to look closer. Any difficult solution needs to be handled with great care.